Hellooo my beauties! 

So, I uploaded a blog post a few months ago now, updating people people on how my cancer journey was going. 
When I wrote that post, I said that last year I had been in intensive care a couple of times with Neutropenic Sepsis, I was very very unwell both times. The chemotherapy that I was on was way too strong for my body and my kidneys. My kidneys are very weak as it is and the chemo was just making me a whole lot worse. If you want to know what I updated you on in this post, then you can read that here: 

So basically, I'm writing this post because there is something else that I need to update you on. I have kept something to myself and between my family and close friends for a good few months now. 

In February, I got some bad news. I know a lot of you know that, but you don't know specifically what has happened. 

Mothers Day, 2016 - Dear Mum

Hey guys,

This weeks blog post I thought would be an absolutely lovely idea to do for Mother's Day!

Mothers Day or 'Mothering Sunday' is celebrated on different days of the year in various parts of the world. It is a day of the year where Mothers are shown how much they are loved and appreciated by their children. The same with Mother figures such as Grandmothers, Step Mothers and Mothers-In-Law. Many people make the effort to make sure that their Mother figures doesn't need to do anything and are pampered & looked after on Mother's Day. 

If they no longer live with their Mum, many people make the special effort to visit their Mother with a card, gift and may even treat her to a meal. People that have sadly had their Mum/Mother figure pass away, they will fondly remember them on Mother's Day and may even visit the cemetery to lay flowers and a card.

Usual Mother's Day gifts are chocolates, flowers, jewellery, a meal out etc. 

Valentines Day with T.H.Baker!

Hey guys,

Firstly, I would just like to apologise for not uploading a blog post for the last couple of weeks. As most of you will know, I was very seriously unwell in hospital and couldn't even keep my eyes open so I obviously couldn't upload blog posts. Since then I've been trying to recover with still being a little unwell but I wanted to get this post up for you all with Valentines Day looming this week! 

So it's around that time of year where Husbands and Wives, Girlfriends and Boyfriends, Boyfriends and Boyfriends & Girlfriends and Girlfriends show each other more love, effection and attention than any other time of the year. People often send and exchange cards and flowers etc (sometimes anonymously) to somebody that they are attracted to or in romantically involved with as well.

Inspirational Quotes For 2016!

Hey my lovely readers! 

I hope you're all well and having the best 2016 so far!

We're all going to be wanting to do different things this year, wanting to achieve different personal goals or set out to achieve our different dreams. For this weeks post I wanted to make you all think about YOUR 2016. So in this blog post I'm going to tell you some of MY favourite inspirational quotes that I am aiming to live by in 2016 and put into place. Maybe you could do the same? 

As you guys may know, I absolutely love a good quote! I've been looking at quotes recently so I wanted to share my top 10 favourites with you to take us forward into 2016 and inspire us as much as they possibly can. 

We are all prone to sitting and allowing our minds to carry us away with our own thoughts. Also, when you wake up feeling unwell, uninspired with no motivation to do the things that YOU want to do, live the way that you want too or to be positive, sometimes I have found that taking the time to sit and read through some quotes can be just what you need to change the way that you are, the way that you think or just to make you feel better in yourself about things that you may be going through at the time. 

The Most Magical Christmas Eve!

Hey guys!

Firstly, this is going to be a bit of a different blog post today. Normally I write blog posts about things such as my cancer story, positivity and negativity, friendships, fears related to hospitals etc etc. But today, I’m going to write a blog post about somebody that I met in September and an amazing day that I experienced on Christmas Eve. This is an extremely special blog post... Its for Verena, and her daughter Jennie.                                                              
                                                                                               
                                                Jennie and her Mum, Verena

In September, I was in hospital and I had just been moved to a ward after coming out of Intensive care. I was in a two bed bay part of the ward with an older lady and she introduced herself right away even though she had visitors which I thought was lovely of her. She had her daughter there with her and a couple of her friends. After they had all left, we started speaking about why she was in hospital and her story from her past. We spoke for ages about herself then we spoke about my story too. To sum it up, this incredible ladies name is/was Verena Smith. 7 years ago, Verena was diagnosed with cancer of the Oesophagus. She had surgery to remove her Oesophagus and went into remission soon after. Unfortunately she relapsed this summer and was diagnosed with cancer again, this time it came back in her lungs. She also had blood clots in both lungs so she was on oxygen all of the time. 

Whilst myself and Verena were in hospital I had the pleasure of meeting her daughters Jennie and Wendy. I met them both a few times, and kept in contact with Jennie throughout our time in hospital via text so that I could keep her updated on how her mum was as she was often in London rehearsing for an upcoming Musical that she was going to be performing in! 

2015!

Hello, again... To my favourite readers! 

So, the end of 2015 is upon us and I just wanted to write this Thursday's blog post about this year to be honest!

I came into 2015 having beaten cancer just a few months before for the second time after undergoing such a hard year for myself and my family. I started chemotherapy again, had an 11 hour operation then wasn't even woken up until the next day just to make sure that I was stable. I then had a stem cell harvest ready for my stem cell transplant, then had to go through an incredibly intense and strong round of chemotherapy so that it would wipe out all of my cells ready for the new healthy ones. After that came the hardest 6 and a half weeks of my 2014. I was unbelievably ill and struggled a hell of a lot. There were many times where I wanted to just give it all up and go home but deep down I knew that to get better, I had to see this gruelling time through until the end. I had my transplant over two days because I collected so many cells when I had my stem cell harvest. It was absolute agony and I was so glad when those two days were over. I never had to do it again and I was so glad about that.

Update/Chatty Post

Happy Thursday, guys!

I hope that you're all well and that you're all having a good week so far.
I also hope that you all liked last week's blog post and that the breathing exercises etc helped any of you that suffer with a fear of hospitals or if you struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. The breathing exercises especially, really help me!

I haven't been well at all this week and have been in hospital over yesterday and today so because of that I haven't been able to prepare one of my usual blog posts as I just haven't felt well enough at all. So, this weeks blog post is going to be different to all of the other posts that I've done. I'm going to do a chatty kind of post, I will let you know briefly how I've been over the last few months and I also have a couple of topics to speak to you all about, too!

The last time I updated you on my blog about my health right now was when I wrote my 'The Second Part Of My Cancer Journey' post back on the 15th of October and I said that I had just finished day four of my second cycle of chemotherapy. I went on to finish that cycle, but unfortunately just a few days later I ended up back in intensive care and I wasn't well at all. I had an awful chest infection, throat infection, fluid on my lung, my kidneys were (and still are) struggling and leaking, then my blood pressure was way too low, heart rate was dangerously high and my temperature kept being too high. So its safe to say that I wasn't well at all. I was in hospital for 10 days in all.

Fears Related To Hospital's

Well, hey!

It's Thursday, which means that it is blog post day... Again!

In my last post I explained that I have been feeling quite down recently and I got amazing amounts of love following me uploading that post, so thank you for that. You all never fail to make me smile or push me forward to carry on.

I am always getting direct messages on Twitter or inboxes on Facebook from different people explaining that my blog posts or my positive tweets help them so much and it makes me so happy to know that me writing a blog post on a different topic each week is helping some of you to face the things that you're going through or struggling with, becoming more positive or helping yourself to become happier etc etc. I've always wanted to help and inspire people, so to be told that you're doing just that 'every day' (in their words) from going through what I am or just by writing these blog posts means so, so much.

I have been asked since I started this blog, A Little Touch Of Hope, to write about having a fear of anything hospital related and to write about if I have any fears when it comes down to going to hospital. So, here we go!

Just 'Down In The Dumps'

Hey doll faces!

I hope you're all well and having a great week so far. Well, it is a Thursday so that means its blog post day... YAY! So I've always wanted this blog to have posts relating to positivity and bettering your life in some way etc. But when you're not in the right place to write these kind of posts, they cannot be forced which is something that I don't want to do. I didn't not want to post a blog post this week so I figured that I would write about how I'm feeling at the minute as I'm sure a lot of you have been in the same kind of place that I'm in right now. Maybe me blogging about this could help some of you in some way, who knows. I hope it does. Here goes...

Like when you're having a bad hair day (Except I don't have any hair, haha!), sometimes we can get to a point in our lives where we're a little 'down in the dumps' as I like to call it. Yes, I have felt a bit down for the last couple of weeks. There is reasoning behind this but I feel that I would rather keep this quiet. I know that some people have noticed that I haven't been my usual self recently. I have still been positive and happy in some sense, but obviously I'm not going to be 100% all of the time. Whether that be because I don't feel well or because I'm just genuinely fed up with what I'm having to go through right now.

What Are Friendships All About?

Hello guys!

I've been really thinking recently about friendships and the people that I have around me right now. Plus wracking my brains about the people that I honestly THOUGHT were my friends. Going through what I am, I obviously need my friends. I really wish things turned out differently with certain people, but hey, that's life!

Sometimes, you can think that you have 'friends for life', then realise later on that you never really did at all.
You can meet people in life and just automatically click with them. The best friendships are when you feel totally comfortable with them and you don't have to pretend to be anyone or anything that you're not. That's how it should be. I've realised that you don't need loads of friends, you just need a small group of real ones.

Positivity & Negativity

Hey lovelies!

Firstly, I would like to apologise for the fact that I didn't upload a post last week. This was because I was taken into intensive care so I physically wasn't well enough to post. I know a lot of people on Twitter understand that though.

Also, I want to start this weeks post off by saying that I hope that you're all having the best week that you can so far. If not, it can only get better. I know mine has!

I'm going to start this off by speaking about negativity. I know a lot of the people that tweet and direct message me on Twitter go through stuff with their life day to day and find it quite difficult. So I just wanted to touch on this first as I think its important to speak about.

Going about your day to day life with constant negative thoughts are always bound to weigh a person down not just mentally but physically, too. It has been said on numerous occasions that if you surround yourself and your life with negativity, you're going to end up finding yourself in a bad place and in time, fighting a losing battle. Nobody wants that. You need to make sure that you're making time out for yourself. Make time to do something that makes YOU truly happy. Anything that you can focus yourself with is great. This is so important. 

Q&A!

Hey everyone!

I am back with post number four, YAY!
Again, I would just like to thank you all so much for reading my last blog post which was the second part of my cancer story. I'd also like to thank everybody for continuing to send me so much love. It genuinely makes me so happy to get messages to say that my posts are helping them and that I keep them going, it means so much to me. My whole blog so far has been a bigger success than I EVER thought that it was going to be. For example, this is only post number four and I have had THOUSANDS of views on each post. That is an INSAAANE amount and I cant thank everybody enough for reading each post and for all of your support and well wishes so far. They mean that you can imagine.

For this weeks blog post I'm going to be doing a Q&A (question and answer) so that you can all get to know me more and have all of the questions that you may have, answered! I got SO excited over the idea of this and I couldn't wait to get stuck right into all of the questions that I got sent!

So... Lets get started!

The second part of my cancer story

Hey everyone!

Thank you so much for the support you have all been showing me since my last post where I posted the first half of my cancer story. I have been so overwhelmed with the messages that I've been receiving! An insane amount of people have been reading my previous posts, I can't actually believe it. I never, ever thought that this many people would be reading my blog posts so soon after me starting this whole blog! AMAZING. Lets carry on with the rest of my cancer story, shall we?

I had two bone marrow biopsies again, a biopsy of my tumour and my second hickman line fitted. They wanted to operate first before even starting any type of treatment but then decided that it would be too dangerous at this stage because of how close to the nerves that my tumour was. They were worried that if they went ahead with the operation, there was a very high possibility that they could cut through my nerves and I would lose the use of some or ALL of the use of my left arm.

The first half of my cancer story

Hey guys!

I had such an incredible response from my first blog post and that made me so happy. I had multiple people message me to say that just from that post, I had helped them and also said that they could tell that I'm going to help SO many people from this blog which is my aim!

This blog post is the first half of my cancer story. I was going to put the whole thing so far up but it is WAY too long, haha! I'm extremely nervous about putting this up but I know that once I do, I'll be able to help more and more people because they will know MY story. So, here goes!

At the time of my diagnosis I was 15. I and was living life as a normal teenage girl. I was going to school and was preparing for my GCSE's. I was going to start college in a few months in the hope to be an oncology nurse. I used to argue with my siblings nonstop, but from the moment I was diagnosed, everything changed.

My first blog post!

Hey everybody!

So, this is my first blog post! YAY! I am SO EXCITED for this blog and everything to come.

To start this off, for anybody that doesn't actually know me/know of me, my name is Jessica-Jayde! But everybody calls me Jayde. I am 20 years old and right now, I am currently fighting cancer for the third time since 2011.

You may be wondering, WHY is it that I've started a blog? Well, I have been asked and told SO many times that I should start a blog. Many people already support and follow my cancer fight on Twitter/Facebook. That in itself is amazing! But A LOT of people don't know my full story and I get so many messages actually asking to hear the whole thing!
As well as sharing my whole story with you all and updating you with everything that is/will be going on with treatment, I will be helping all of you too!