I hope that you're all well and that you're all having a good week so far.
I also hope that you all liked last week's blog post and that the breathing exercises etc helped any of you that suffer with a fear of hospitals or if you struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. The breathing exercises especially, really help me!
I haven't been well at all this week and have been in hospital over yesterday and today so because of that I haven't been able to prepare one of my usual blog posts as I just haven't felt well enough at all. So, this weeks blog post is going to be different to all of the other posts that I've done. I'm going to do a chatty kind of post, I will let you know briefly how I've been over the last few months and I also have a couple of topics to speak to you all about, too!
The last time I updated you on my blog about my health right now was when I wrote my 'The Second Part Of My Cancer Journey' post back on the 15th of October and I said that I had just finished day four of my second cycle of chemotherapy. I went on to finish that cycle, but unfortunately just a few days later I ended up back in intensive care and I wasn't well at all. I had an awful chest infection, throat infection, fluid on my lung, my kidneys were (and still are) struggling and leaking, then my blood pressure was way too low, heart rate was dangerously high and my temperature kept being too high. So its safe to say that I wasn't well at all. I was in hospital for 10 days in all.
Then for the next part of what I'm going to tell you all, unless I told you personally then you won't know that I told my consultant from The Royal Marsden that I didn't want to carry on with the chemotherapy that I was on as it was making me so ill and every time that I had it which was only two cycles, I ended up in intensive care both times. My kidneys don't work as they should anyway so it was making them even worse than they already are and it was also making me feel so weak & my body was getting weaker and weaker, so I wasn't prepared to put myself through that again. I had a couple of weeks beak then I had an appointment with my consultant again, we decided on a new type of oral chemotherapy which would ultimately be giving my body a break which is what it really needs. I have been taking this everyday since the 16th of November, this cycle means that I take the chemotherapy everyday for 3 weeks then I get a weeks break where I don't take it at all. I have been doing ok on this chemotherapy apart from feeling a little bit sick and very tired, which is great to be honest up until about a week ago when I started to feel ill, then I got worse day by day then I finally gave in and went into hospital yesterday. I've been prescribed some medicines so hopefully they help and I'm much better soon!
So, for the next part of this blog post I have an announcement to officially announce on my blog as I haven't done that yet!
Please make sure that you're all subscribed to my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC7HnI1yzyT6SKZ5O8lhKEpw - Thank you!
For the second thing that I want to mention...
As people may know I'm really good friends with Sam Callahan and have known him for some years now! I knew him way before, but in 2013 Sam started a journey with The X Factor and once the show was finished, he went on the arena tour in 2014! When the tour came to Brighton on the 19th March, I was so annoyed that I couldn't go as I had ended up in hospital from an infection from chemotherapy. Sam ended up coming to surprise me at the hospital and persuaded my nurses to let me go to the show that night and although they weren't 100% with it, Sam told them that he would look after me & they decided to let me go. It felt like I was on day release from prison! Haha. When it came to Sam's turn to perform, he was introduced the song "I Won't Give Up" then pointed to me in the audience and said "This ones for you!" Which made me quite tearful. Oops! This meant so much to me anyway and has always stuck with me. 5 months later I was told that I had beaten cancer for the second time. I was SO happy. Obviously, up until August I started to live my life again as a normal teenage girl, thinking that was the end for me and cancer. Oh how wrong was I.
On the 3rd of August, I was told that they had found two new tumours on my scan. I was absolutely distraught. I kept it quiet and just told family and close friends for a few weeks. I called Sam to tell him the bad news, as soon as he answered and said hello, I had already started crying so with a shaky voice I told him that my cancer was back for the third time. He was just as upset as I was.
At the beginning of September he told me that he had written me a song. He sent me a couple of voice notes from the song so that I could hear parts of it but he mentioned that he hadn't finished it yet. Just from hearing little parts of it, it made me cry. The words in it honestly touched me. He kept the name of the song secret for a little while longer but I managed to get it out of him in the end, haha! When he told me that he had named it "This One's For You" (Because of the night from X Factor tour) I cried YET AGAIN. I heard the full song for the first time when he sung it on YouNow for his fans and I'm just so blown away by it. I can't even explain how I feel about it without getting emotional, everything that Sam has written for this song, I know has come straight from the heart and that makes it so much more special. This song keeps me going daily, especially when I'm having a bad day and for that I couldn't be more thankful. This song and Sam honestly mean such an incredible amount to me and I really don't know how I would have gotten through what I have in the past or what I'm going through now, without Sam. He's become such a huge part of my life and I now couldn't imagine my life without him in it.
This One's For You is part of a 3 song EP called 'Bigger Things' that is available for download NOW! I would absolutely love it if you could all support my amazing friend by ordering his EP. The EP is just £2.37 and all proceeds are going to The Teenage Cancer Trust which is so lovely of him.
Thank you Sam, for absolutely everything that you have done and for everything that you do for me. You're one of the best friends that I could ask for and I genuinely feel so lucky to have you in my life (even if you do make me cry so often! ;)) So much love for you xx
You can download Sam's EP 'Bigger Things' here: https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/bigger-things-single/id1058981414 or just by typing Bigger Things into the iTunes store!
I know this has been a very different kind of blog post compared to what I normally do but I hope that you've enjoyed it all the same and that you understand why I haven't been able to write up one of my normal posts this week. They will be back to normal next Thursday! Please let me know via the comments section below or by Twitter & Instagram (@_JaydeAllen) what kind of videos & Christmas videos that you would like to see me do for my YouTube channel!
Until next time my lovelies,
So much love, always!
Jayde x
This has made me cry!!
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